Beliefs

This is my simple religion. There is no need for temples; no need for complicated philosophy. Our own brain, our own heart is our temple; the philosophy is kindness. – Dalai Lama

I didn’t use to believe in God..

Now I have my own personal beliefs which are different than Christian beliefs but I think religion is mostly about community and helping others.
I believe we all are one living and breathing organism. I believe in energy, I believe that prayer harnesses an energy that is not measurable yet. I think this is interconnected consciences and I think that is God.

I believe in enlightenment, I think that original thought(light bulbs going off in our heads) and creativity are God (my God).
I believe that Jesus is a way bringing God out of the mind but in movement/human kind of way. I think that being positive and helping one another is bringing God to others and out of others.

I was in junior college taking an art class on life drawing. I remember the first time I saw a person get naked and just stand there. We first did 1 minute gesture drawings, and I remember just looking at humanity differently. The insecurities of the human body, the flaws that the self is compelled to hate make each person who they are.
The teacher had us do a 15 minute sketch of the man,nude and posing. He was a white older male who was pretty proud of himself and his body but there was still insecurity in his prescence. He wanted us to like him and he was baring all of his physical body to let us see him, all of him. I remember having an outer body experience when I drew that man. I remember my hands sketching what my eyes saw. I knew that I believed in a interconnected consciousness then. I knew that right now I was doing something original and dare I say it great. I remember having all these thoughts in my head. I knew that God lived within all of us. I knew that there was a state of meditation that allowed you to tap into the interconciousness. We all have a mind that has thoughts and inspirations, i think that God helps you turn the light on in your head to live out those inspirations.
Anyways, after I knew that I believed in God. I looked at sketch and it was pretty good (great for me, lol). My teacher came over and said that this was talent and everybody oohed and awwed at my art. MY ART! I was inspired in that moment that I could do something anything well. I am not coordinated, I am a punishment to have on any sports team. I suck at math. I love to sing but don’t have the confidence to sing loud enough to even work on my voice. On that day, I felt like I was good at something. It was a big moment in my life. I mean I figured out how God would come into my life, he has always been there within me. And I learned that I could do something well.
I felt like when I told people about this experience they would then ask me if I was high. And I wasn’t shockingly. No drugs just my brain and me. I wrote about the experience in an english class. M teacher asked me if I was high when it happened. Nope.
Oh yeah so my beliefs. I believe in finding calm within oneselfs. I am pretty sure I am buddhist but I am really interested in Judaism and Christianity. I am just not sure how that all fits into my beliefs. But I think that is important for me to be open to change my beliefs and at least be open to learning more about religions.
I haven’t read much of the bible, I tell myself I want to but I have time and I don’t. I read stories to my kids but when they get older I want to teach them that God is a light/flame inside them and if they lose that fire. It can be relit by helping others.
My husband is christian but he has a little budhist in him. He isn’t perfect. He gives people grace when they act like fools. He forgives people.